Photo by Natalie Schlegel.
Dear Fellow Mamas,
I love you guys. Point, blank period.
Being a mom is a calling I've had for many lifetimes.
I've been to past life readers and heard many stories of my families.
At one point I had 9 kids!
At another point, I was married to my current husband (#soulmates) and cared for our 3 kids as he went off to war in the UK.
I moved into a communal living village, hubby came back a war hero & we lived happily ever after.
Another time, I lost a son.
In another lifetime I had Baby Nathaniel (due in 3 weeks!) and his name was Noah. 🥰🙏🏽
I have a stellium (many planets) in my 4th house (#astrology) which means the home & family are super important to me.
I've always loved kids. I was a camp counselor, volleyball & soccer coach and K-12 teacher for many years.
In this lifetime, I became a single mom at 28.
It was the the hardest thing I have ever done.
Second only to recovering from PTSD from a domestic violence situation.
I didn't know where Dad was at. Sometimes we talked, sometimes we didn't.
Sometimes he was excited, other times he hated me.
I ended up having a surprise c-section on my 38-week appointment.
I remember calling Dad with no answer.
So I texted him that I had to have surgery that afternoon.
I told him to tell his mom, because I had a really deep connection with her.
Then, I texted my bestie at Juvenile Detention & asked her to tell the principal that I was having the baby today and wouldn't be back for work lol. And to send my love to the kids.
Then, I called my sister and she said my mom was in Florida giving a speech.
She hopped into "big-little sister mode" and she said she would find Mom and book flights.
Dad ended up driving an ambulance to the hospital (#paramedic) and made it about 20 minutes before go time.
The operating room was silent.
Dad and I barely spoke.
They pulled Baby James out and he wasn't breathing.
They cut the cord and took him to the side to clear his airways.
I asked Dad if he was okay, he said, "Yes, he's fine."
I remember my OB was being super chipper & upbeat.
She could feel the vibes. I appreciated her.
Then, they placed Baby James on my chest and I just looked at him in awe.
He was the sweetest creature I had ever seen! 😍🙏🏽👶🏽
I looked at his face, his body, his hair and his skin & just fell in love. 🥰🙏🏽 #momlife
I instantly got this rush of, "Anna, it's go time. Whether or not this man chooses to be involved - YOU FUCKING GOT THIS!"
They sewed me up as me & Dad watched James - simply breathing on my chest.
They took me to the room I was in before & I just snuggled with James.
Dad sat with us for about 10 minutes and went back to work.
Shortly after, his mom came in.
Her light & energy was so beautiful. So calming and so motherly. Exactly what I needed.
I was eternally grateful to have her in my life & by my side.
She knew things were weird, that my family was in California & that I'd be alone for a while.
An hour or so later, they took me to the room where I would rest & recoup.
I shared a couple of pictures on Snapchat with my best friends & family. 🥰🙏🏽
One of my besties came to be with us the first night - Lauren!
I remember she cried as she walked into the room.
She was so in love, so happy & so incredibly present.
She held Baby James and I took this pic:
The next morning, my girl Amelia came!
She brought me a vegan burrito from Sweet Art.
It was heavenly.
I was so blessed to have my riders!
Ladies - if you're a single mom, create your girl squad. I'm telling you - my ladies kept me sane, kept me hopeful & were so deeply non-judgment. It was everything I needed.
That night, my mom flew in.
She literally got on stage at the Money Show in Florida and said, "My daughter just had her baby! I gotta catch a flight to Saint Louis!" 😂 And hopped on the first flight out.
She made it just at the end of visiting hours, but it was so good to see her!
We ordered some Mediterranean food & chilled in the room.
I remember my mom was deep-breathing (#yogamom) and essentially floating in the clouds. It must have been wild to see her baby girl with a baby boy.
My sister caught a red-eye and arrived later that night.
The next morning, they moved me from the old Barnes maternity ward to the new one.
They wheeled us through the many tunnels connecting the different buildings at the hospital. It was quite an adventure. And quite hilarious to see Baby James in a plastic box and me in a wheel chair.
The new maternity ward was BEAUTIFUL.
As the first moms to roll up, they had balloons and all the nurses and staff were cheering & clapping for us! I even I got to cut the blue ribbon to my new suite!
They gave us each a beautiful watercolor painting for being the first mamas.
It felt really special & was a MAJOR upgrade from the dark, old school room I was in.
This one was so bright, beautiful & overlooking Forest Park.
That just goes to show how much our surroundings affect us.
Luckily, I had finished my yoga teacher training (while preggo) and had many tools in my pocket to keep calm & find the peace within.
Having my exterior match my interior, especially after a major surgery, truly lifted my spirits & accelerated my healing.
My mom & sister arrived around 11 AM that morning (Day 3) and were amazed with the hospital! And they brought more amazing food from Sweet Art. 🙌🏽
My sister cried immediately (#cancermoon) and my mom was smiling from ear to ear. They started singing lullabies & went straight into full mama, nursery mode.
It was adorable.
They hung out with us all day. We watched the Winter Olympics on our new shiny flat screen & relaxed. My favorite has always been the ice-skating.
This weekend also happened to be Mardi Gras. And Saint Louis has the second biggest celebration outside of Nola. #funfact
The next day (Day 4), I was discharged!
Mom & sis came with more food (#lovelanguage) and watched as the new-born photographer took the cutest pictures of Baby James!
We packed up and headed to the elevator. My sister was a bit out of sorts driving my car in the snow LOL #californiagirls.
They used my dog's chuck-it to clear the windshield that morning. 😂
We came home & my dog, Tehya, got to meet Baby James for the first time!
It was adorbs.
And my neighbor came over to say hello and offer any help we needed.
And that's it my friends! #birthstory 🥰🙏🏽
If you've stuck around this long, you're probably a mama, and probably reflecting on your birth story(ies).
As I am 3 weeks away from Baby #2, I am thinking about how different this pregnancy has been since the last.
First of all, I am with my husband, my soul mate & guardian.
He is the sweetest, most loving, patient partner I could ever ask for.
He has remained calm when my hormones were flaring and my moods were all over the place. As I tossed & turned in bed trying to get comfortable. And when I was too nauseous to help with Baby James in the first trimester.
Also - shoutout to Kelly Kimberlin for her Emotion Codes clearing session that literally took away my morning sickness. And guess what? She said that 80% of the emotions trapped in my body, where from my first pregnancy. Now how bout that? 😂
So back to my hubby - Christian has also been so incredibly kind as I reflect on the last time I was preggo (with another man).
He is truly a God send and I am so honored & blessed to have him and to birth his first son.
This time, I have a doula, Luna, and am aiming for a home birth.
So how does this all relate to my business?
In the single mom and now married mom journey I have learned to:
These things literally saved my life.
I received a lot of judgment and resentment from my family for having Baby James.
I was told to have an abortion, that I would never be happy and that my entire life would be a struggle.
That my son would grow up in a "broken-home," would not have a male-role model & would end up causing & having hella problems.
I was told to leave my job in Juvenile Detention. That it was unsafe. Especially for an expecting mother.
I was told that I would financially struggle, not be able to travel & would basically have to give up my dreams.
Had I listened and allowed this shit (aka their fears) to penetrate me and get into my psyche, maybe I would have ended the pregnancy & moved back home. Who knows.
But my gut was telling me that I was born for this. That my family would come around. And that we would be fine.
After all, I was the only one in my family who worked with children. The only one who moved away from home. And the only one leading a 100% soulful life.
I didn't have all the answers - career, money or parenting, but what I did know was that my son meant everything to me. And that I would always do what was best for us. Regardless of who was with me or not.
I used this same mojo & spirit to create my business.
I mean - who opens up a new business with a brand new baby?
I DO! 😂💪🏽💫
Yes, there was a lot of struggle. Yes, there were a lot of tears, lonely nights and moments of the utmost sadness and lack of faith.
But hey, I fucking made it.
As a single mom, I took Baby James with me to every networking meeting, every one-on-one. He was living proof of how & why I could help my fellow mamas make their lives easier.
At one point I was doing 3-4 networking events per week & 11 one-on-ones. Sometimes I could feel people pity me. And feel sorry for me.
Yet, I never gave up.
I met the most amazing people (many of whom are now my best friends) and said, "Hey, this is me. This is real life and this is how & why I can help you."
As time went on - Dad became more involved.
He would help me with James, agreed to a Baby sitter & eventually daycare.
It was a long road, but we made it!
For the first time in my life, I had some alone time.
I could finally breathe.
I slept, I cried, I rested & cooked great meals for myself.
I took myself out to lunch, booked a massage & simply enjoyed being my own woman again.
Of course, I cried the first couple of days of daycare & felt the immense mom-guilt, but I also knew that this was the only way I was going to be able to provide for my family.
To face the world, on my own & have the flexibility to be a hands-on mama.
When James was 18 months old, I met my husband. We had seen each other & talked briefly at different networking events, but finally hung out 2 weeks after my 29th birthday.
We were instantly smitten and everyone knew we were a couple before we knew we were a couple. 😂
We were engaged 2 weeks later & married 3 weeks later on July 28th, 2019.
We had a lot of nay-sayers (just like my pregnancy), but we knew this was it.
Our union was a divine, soul contract. Everything we had ever been through, had been preparing us for each other.
When you do the inner-work, take inspired action & surround yourself with amazing souls - you are GOLDEN. I promise you.
If you don't hear anything else I am saying - listen to your soul.
It will never lead you astray.
It can scare a lot of people to live so heart-centered, soul-centered & put so much faith in the universe.
You might lose some folks along on the way. Trigger some deep seeded emotions or experience major blow-ups & back lash.
However, you will always be safe, provided for & attract the people and opportunities you deeply desire.
I love having a business man as my partner. He is a Capricorn Sun & I am a Capricorn Moon. We are both a 9 life path & gift.
We love to build, we love to co-work and we are so excited to build our empire together.
We are humanitarians through and through & 100% dedicated to our spiritual evolution.
Soon after we were married, I completed levels I, II & III of Usui Reiki training and became a certified Reiki Master.
Christian was focused on his public safety drone company as I forged ahead with my organizing business.
I've always been a go hard or go home kind of girl and these Reiki attunements really blew my mind & opened me up to the undeniable fact that I was a healer.
In the past, I resisted this. I blocked it & perhaps even resented it.
I resisted this title, wasn't sure if others would think I was effective or "woke" enough, how I could make money this way or how others would think of me if I really stepped out of the spiritual closet.
Yet, one thing was clear - I wasn't just an organizer, I was literally moving energy.
In Reiki terms - I was helping my clients heal their chakras. The home, after all, represents the root chakra. And is solidified from 0-7 years old.
And as a new Reiki Master, I could feel the power in my hands. Literally.
And when my first certification client wanted to become a Master, I knew the universe was testing & confirming that this was what I was here for.
It was then that I realized I needed to radically transform my business. No longer would I be organizing homes (for the foreseeable Corona future) & I realized I wanted to serve families in a more direct way.
Everything that my organizing clients complained about, were actually mental & emotional blockages.
Why would I spend so much time moving the material things around, when what we really needed to move was the energy - inside & out?
This is when I decided to step into healer mode & become a teacher again.
My goal is to help my fellow mamas remove the energetic obstacles preventing them from creating the life they always wanted.
So, my entire pregnancy, I dove deep into creating online content, courses, communities & a one-on-one coaching program.
I also dove into expanding my knowledge with numerology, astrology & human design. This is how I have been able to connect the dots in my past, with my family, with my true purpose.
I am still practicing Reiki here in my home & offering certifications, but also allowing myself to be a spiritual guide.
The first thing I did was create a Soulful Entrepreneurship Mastermind. This is an incredible 8-week course I created to help elevate my fellow mompreneurs - personally & professionally.
I completed two sessions and am in love with this program & the magic it has brought to everyone within the group.
Join us in January of 2021 for the next one!
Second, I created memberships. My Mastermind ladies were so sad that our course was ending & wanted a way for us to keep in touch year-round. So, I birthed my memberships.
I have one for business women, one for soul seekers & one for my fellow mompreneurs. Click here learn more about our sacred circles.
Lastly, I created a 12-week, one-on-one coaching program called Mindshift. The vision here was to create a sacred space to work with my clients to clear the mental, emotional & energetic blockages preventing them from having everything they have ever wanted.
I realized, that we need to tackle the mindset first, before we tackle the environment.
To create real, lasting change. We must start with ourselves.
Yes, I will still continue to organize, but I highly recommend going within first.
I whole-heartedly believe that once you complete this deep dive into yourself, you will have all the tools, faith & support you need to fly free.
And that's the goal after all - to be your own, incredible sovereign being.
So friends, that is how my business, family & life evolved.
If it wasn't for my unwavering faith and experience being a single-mom, I wouldn't have had the balls to radically transform my business & step into my power.
I mean shoot - when you're on your own, you gotta become your own best friend.
If it wasn't for my incredible, soul-mate husband, I wouldn't have had the support I needed to truly step into my healing power & allow my presence & wisdom to be enough.
Having him see me the way he does. With his pure knowing and understanding is everything.
Had I not become a Reiki Master and experienced the massive awakenings & energetic openings, I would not have allowed myself to pursue a healing career.
And now as Baby Nathaniel nears his arrival, I will be so empowered, so fulfilled, it's incredible.
I love you all. More than you will ever know.
And I wish you the best of luck on your healing journey.
As women, as mothers, we are SO POWERFUL, we have everything we need inside of ourselves. We simply need to remember, follow our intuition and not be afraid to step into the unknown.
The void is one of our greatest teachers.
Know that I got you, the universe got you & that we are incredible, sovereign beings.
Sending so much love & light, to you and your family.